leading me on was the only thing 
you knew how to do 
no matter how hard you tried to stop 
you still continued.

nobody knows but me 
how hard your strike is.
nobody knows but me
how hurtful you could be.

As i sink into insecurity.
My strenghts weakening.
My energy draining.
My heart failing.

Failing to feel.
Failing to love.
Failing to trust.
Failing to be.

As i get comfortable.
Cosy in this emptiness.
Lounging in silence.
Waiting for "nothing" to happen.