Afique Juan

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Sunday, March 22, 2009


random Pandemonium.

Friday, February 6, 2009 at 10:50pm | 

i only feel like this
cause you're the cause of it
and you know what you did
i've only felt like this once before 
thats when you walked out that door
and i couldnt see you anymore 

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i look out the window
& what do i see
a drity world staring back at me
I walk the door left my home 
ready for the world unknown.

And all i see is all the lying and the cheating.
I become witness to fightings and killings.
whatever for? I thought life was worth so much more....
Than the things you own and the life you live.
Than the death of an innocent young kid.

I can't believe that it all ended up like this.
and we're all just waiting for the change which we are hoping and we pray . it'll come soon...
please come soon.

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The diary's rules to writing songs and keeping them true to your heart.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009 at 1:32pm 
I try so hard to exist.
Feel like cutting my wrist.
try so hard to matter 
Not that it matters.

I know that it seems 
Like I'm from some emo scene.
Like I'm facing teen angst 
Eventhough I'm peaking eighteen

but it couldn't be 
the immature thoughts in my head.
Cause how could voices 
leave you in such a bad state. 

Some call me Fake.
Some call me nasty.
Some call me Bitch.
I prefer Nasty.

My life is like the mean girls 
that they show on tv.
Extraterrestrial Drama
That they made up around me.

I really have no time 
for this kind of childish games.
Get out of my way 
SO my fame can be claimed.

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The holy Tribal.

Monday, March 16, 2009 at 7:50pm 
As i stood in the middle, 
with only a pen to hold.
I was finding for the paper,
where my feelings would be thrown.

But all that was in view,
was only the past. 
The present never in sight, 
infact it never last.

As i reminisce on something, 
that i never had.
I'm seeking for answers,
to the questions asked.

But there's nothing in this book,
to help me understand,
the journey of my life,
and how it will end.

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Under the threshold of consciousness.
Thursday, February 12, 2009 at 9:06pm 
What you gave me that night,
felt so strong.
It felt so right.It felt so wrong.
The minute you left, 
I felt a burn in my chest.
I knew I needed more. 
I was hooked.
There was, some kind of subliminal attraction.
Like a coke addiction.
I'm craving for mor

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Back in Here.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009 at 10:36pm
Leave me in isolation.Don't come close to demolition.Stay away and watch from a distance.

My emmo is drained. so let me charge it for a day. please stay.

Let sleeping dogs lie.I can't deny. I just wanna die. I don't know why. It just hurts inside. 

History haunts me.The future brings fears.The present is now, then never again.

I'm so tired of explaining myself just because i do things differently. I 'm so sick of explaining myself for the wrongs i never did.Thanks for the times and tears. 

I am now reminded that the place i am going home to was the same place i was trying to run away from. 

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