in my own words::an expression

2009-08-26T21:27:00.000-07:00

It is raining now, so let's wait.

August 27, 2009

We are on high. Cloud 9. Grown from the depths of down. We are stronger now. Fresh, we gain the strengths from the sea. Life from the breeze. As rain recollects and the clouds, Yes , the clouds. Re-nourish to cleanse. For every colour that shines after would make a mark in the sky. Staining the vast blanket of earth. Every drop of that colour drips onto our lives. We watch from where we reside. The growth of every man and woman and child. We are stronger now.

2009-08-24T21:47:00.001-07:00

A dream.

I stood in the corner. Watching as you took every step nearer. I saw future in your eyes.I couldn't believe I saw the light. Out shone the fairness of your skin. My lips turned light red, you purged my sin. Like rain from the sky you brought me cleansed from the highest droplet, neither from river nor lake. An artesian aquifer that rose from the crater's bed.
It is like a dream,no? It felt like that for me to.The dream that'll last 200 years.

Is it too late?

Won't you take me in the room?
Let you give out all your knowledge.
Let the geek in pink rule.
Could you open up your eyes.
you have to see me beyond the colours.
I can be black and white.
See how I fight my battles.
In truth there is no need to prove.
You just want worthy students.
Just like how I want my enemies.
You are just another of them losers.

When my nails cracked and Why I don’t give a shit.

2009-04-12T18:25:00.001-07:00

Today at 9:17am

Many ways to die.
I've thought about it
and I want to try,
But I don't want to die.

I've tried so hard to change my ways
They are just somethings that will never change.
This is one which will stay the same.
The biggest of my flaws.

I want to amputate.
So I won't do that again.
I want to fix the switch in my head.
I want that to change.

It's so hard to be alive.
Society kills our minds.
Corruption is the way to die.
Freedom was such a lie.

There is no such thing for freedom.
As you will never be free from ,
Critics and insults and doubt.
If only the pain would stop.

I am not emo.I am contend.
but life and society never allows me to forget.
The list of flaws that I have.
That makes me still a single man.

It was not so much about being alone.
Bout how my life would be different
If my wrist weren't this way.
Or if my hands did not sway.

For sometimes I wonder,
If i should go all the way.
With the dresses and extensions.
Cause they are people with those predilections.

But that is not me & I won't look good in heels.

So lets break down these walls and i see what i've got.
My personality is dry and I'm about to rot.
I can smell ammonium and I think it's coming.
Goodbye my lovers,I'm tired of running.

2009-03-22T09:29:00.000-07:00

random Pandemonium.

Friday, February 6, 2009 at 10:50pm |

i only feel like this
cause you're the cause of it
and you know what you did
i've only felt like this once before
thats when you walked out that door
and i couldnt see you anymore

---------------------------------------------------------->

i look out the window
& what do i see
a drity world staring back at me
I walk the door left my home
ready for the world unknown.

And all i see is all the lying and the cheating.
I become witness to fightings and killings.
whatever for? I thought life was worth so much more....
Than the things you own and the life you live.
Than the death of an innocent young kid.

I can't believe that it all ended up like this.
and we're all just waiting for the change which we are hoping and we pray . it'll come soon...
please come soon.

--------------------------------------------------------->

2009-03-22T09:28:00.000-07:00

The diary's rules to writing songs and keeping them true to your heart.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009 at 1:32pm

I try so hard to exist.
Feel like cutting my wrist.
try so hard to matter
Not that it matters.

I know that it seems
Like I'm from some emo scene.
Like I'm facing teen angst
Eventhough I'm peaking eighteen

but it couldn't be
the immature thoughts in my head.
Cause how could voices
leave you in such a bad state.

Some call me Fake.
Some call me nasty.
Some call me Bitch.
I prefer Nasty.

My life is like the mean girls
that they show on tv.
Extraterrestrial Drama
That they made up around me.

I really have no time
for this kind of childish games.
Get out of my way
SO my fame can be claimed.

2009-03-22T09:27:00.002-07:00

The holy Tribal.

Monday, March 16, 2009 at 7:50pm

As i stood in the middle,
with only a pen to hold.
I was finding for the paper,
where my feelings would be thrown.

But all that was in view,
was only the past.
The present never in sight,
infact it never last.

As i reminisce on something,
that i never had.
I'm seeking for answers,
to the questions asked.

But there's nothing in this book,
to help me understand,
the journey of my life,
and how it will end.

2009-03-22T09:27:00.001-07:00

Under the threshold of consciousness.

Thursday, February 12, 2009 at 9:06pm

What you gave me that night,
felt so strong.
It felt so right.It felt so wrong.
The minute you left,
I felt a burn in my chest.
I knew I needed more.
I was hooked.
There was, some kind of subliminal attraction.
Like a coke addiction.
I'm craving for mor

2009-03-22T09:25:00.000-07:00

Back in Here.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009 at 10:36pm

Leave me in isolation.Don't come close to demolition.Stay away and watch from a distance.

My emmo is drained. so let me charge it for a day. please stay.

Let sleeping dogs lie.I can't deny. I just wanna die. I don't know why. It just hurts inside.

History haunts me.The future brings fears.The present is now, then never again.

I'm so tired of explaining myself just because i do things differently. I 'm so sick of explaining myself for the wrongs i never did.Thanks for the times and tears.

I am now reminded that the place i am going home to was the same place i was trying to run away from.

2009-01-08T05:59:00.000-08:00

Singularity Flaunts Strenght

Today at 9:23pm

if anything i am a shadow

walking in the darkness of my stride.

Looking for one to follow.

When leading myself is truly wise.

I don't need a manual guide

or a 101 to life.

Following my Heart and My halo

is the best way to survive.

I don't need a companion

to help me through the rain

I'm gonna change the weather

I'll show the better man.

Your gravity was strong

I would be pulled into your orbit

But you were always gone

Thats why i was affected

Pain no more

cause I'm stronger now

Atmosphere as my walls

You can't touch me

I'm at another high

So far out of your reach

How could I be so down

Because of a pathetic bitch.

2008-12-31T22:20:00.001-08:00

My heart's a slave

Today at 2:19pm

I thought i was standing strong.
I thought I could do it all.
But man i was wrong.
I slowly slip and fall.

I melt at the slightest touch
And I hate it very much
how you affect me
It feels like i'm easy.

whenever you're around me
my heart keeps tumbling down.
whenever you're with other guys
i never make a sound

but i just wanna let it out
tell you how i'm feeling
but i you'll never understand
you'll just look past it.

2008-12-26T07:14:00.001-08:00

Love is a losing game which a winner plays to only lose. 8:23pm

Is there another name for love?
Cause I don't wish to blame love for my heart breaks.
I don't wish to blame people for hurting me.
Cause they never meant to do so.

Who then do I blame?
how could love be love if it hurts?
Maybe Love is made up.
Like Fairy tales and 75% off Chanel sales.

Do I blame myself?
But what for?
For the fun of self-affliction?
For the lovely attention?

So not worth my time.

2008-12-26T07:13:00.001-08:00

oneoneoneone 11:12pm

Doesn't it feel like everybody is gone.
Nobody is in your orbit
No one is not insane
Everyone has lost it

Don't you see the space that grows.
The vacancy between you and me
with the gap, silence follows.
Affecting our relationship.

No one held to their promises.
Doesn't it feel like you're all alone.
No one is there by your side
After the last dove has flown.

No man is an island.
He can never be soo pure.

No one can.

2008-12-26T07:13:00.000-08:00

oneoneoneone 11:12pm

2008-12-26T01:15:00.000-08:00

Biscuits 5:10pm

leading me on was the only thing
you knew how to do
no matter how hard you tried to stop
you still continued.

nobody knows but me
how hard your strike is.
nobody knows but me
how hurtful you could be.

As i sink into insecurity.
My strenghts weakening.
My energy draining.
My heart failing.

Failing to feel.
Failing to love.
Failing to trust.
Failing to be.

As i get comfortable.
Cosy in this emptiness.
Lounging in silence.
Waiting for "nothing" to happen.

2008-12-25T02:34:00.003-08:00

Edit

You're not alone in taped conversations 9:46am

As we try to comprehend the realities of life.And breakaway from wishful thinking in which we reside.As we free ourselves from dreams and forgo a realm of insanity.We take the steps of fear, scared and afraid of the world.

Can I stay in this Creative chaos? It feels safer and I wont feel lost.
Is there a place of solace.A place where happiness will feel alright? Where no guilt weighs on my conscience nor my life.

2008-12-25T02:34:00.001-08:00

Edit

Dang bored shet.like whutdafesh. 2:49pm

You shout and you scream
you think you're always right.
You say I'm soft and I'm frail.
But lets see who will win this fight

You say I'm weak and dependent
But look who is crawling back.

You're stuck in the middle
you turn back to see
that i have a leash around your neck.
baby you gotta move on.
blink twice and
you see you holding the leash instead.

you needn't help me through the storm
cause you're probably the reason all along.
you needn't hug me when i cry
cause you most likely to be the reason why.
you needn't help me up when i fall
cause i can do it all,
without you.

2008-12-25T02:33:00.001-08:00

Edit

Starts with a M. 7:34pm

why are you so rough
where is your grace as the woman that you are
why are you so abrupt
breaking my slumber with beats of thunder.
I cant help but literally feel tossed around.
I'm breaking slowly with every word you scream.
I just need some time to think.
Your cynical jokes hurt more than they seem
I'm searching for the Nora from brothers & sisters
But all I get is a Jail warden from River State prison

2008-12-25T02:32:00.001-08:00

Edit

TexSape 1:52pm

It's so unexpected.
My life is now changed.
I fall into denial.
My heart filled with pain.

Parts of my life,
So unexplained.
As if edited,
Only the drama remains

It's so unexpected.
As i scroll down the page,
Screens of fantasies.
I see my own face.

A small agenda.
An unplanned rendezvous.
With the world as my stage,
they see the things that i do.

It's so unexpected.
A place far from home.
all of my sexcapades,
is now for show.

Available on www.xtube.com.

PSYCH!

2008-12-25T02:29:00.000-08:00

Edit

Sober Dober Lober Mober Gober 6:20pm

Can i live and not be sober?
Can i be high in the clouds?
Breathe in fairy powder.
In la la land and candy town.

Can i dwell in all my fantasies,
and sink into my sins?
Can i sleep with anonymous people?
get a tattoo and some piercings?

As i land on hunky haven,
and restore my yin and yang.
I get ready for the next session.
Candy floss now in my hand.

I awake from my deep slumber.
your number written on my thigh.
I noticed that I've not be sober
for really, quite sometime.

Buck

2008-12-14T05:21:00.001-08:00

You claim i speak of lies.
Along with the sins bad people do.
You saw no amount of tears i cried,
when you spoke of some one new.

Did you not see what laid bare before you?
Did you not notice the clarity of the status quo?
Clouded by insecurities.Your whole life a facade.
Enhanced and Edited like how you wanted it to be.

You were the eye at every corner.
You were the spy behind every turn.
You quit something You never tried
Please see how your life is a lie.

I’m no longing hanging onto you.
You muscle-bodied timidity.
I’m no longer thinking bout You.
You possessive Buck.

I call em like I see em

2008-12-02T21:44:00.000-08:00

the writer wrote his stories,
& the student read his notes.
as the scent of coffee fluttered,
they looked up amazed.
when their eyes met,
they couldnt look away.

The dark brown hair,
and deep set eyes,
the arched brows.
the writer studied the student,
and read him like a book.

the writer had emotions,
he never had before.
the writer felt feelings,
only his characters bore.

He saw through those eyes an innocent boy.
who needed protection from the world’s evil coy.
He wants to embrace and secure.hug and cherish.
love and conquer. He wants to but can’t do…

————————————————————————————-

if it hurts you for me to be me,

i think its best i take my things and leave.

at least i know.

i’m not causing any pain.

at least i know.

i’m not bringing you shame.

Mirror...

2008-12-02T21:40:00.000-08:00

as i walked towards the mirror,
i come every step nearer,
to see the shirt fall off my shoulders,
leaving me only in boxers.

as i looked into the mirror,
i could see the funny figures.
shilouettes of handprints and kisses,
on my neck and around my nipples.

now i stared into the mirror.
seeing the marks outlined by colour.
I knew my body had been tainted.
like a white canves being painted.

as i took off my knickers,
and walked into the shower.
trying to scrub my history.
the mirror holds my mystery.

2008-08-09T10:26:00.000-07:00

Aesthetics.
Symmetry and Asymmetry.
Structure and Form.

What is Love ?
But a Drug that feels so good.
Yet hurts so bad.

Why Love ?
Unexplainable.

How does Love come about ?
God knows.

2008-06-30T17:28:00.000-07:00

oh jezebel , don't you see
you're causing hurt to everything.
Your fathers and mothers
Your Boy & Your bestfriend

Can't you see you're killing them.
You're digging a hole for yourself
You're blaming everyone else
While you can see You're hurting yourself

2008-06-19T02:07:00.000-07:00

its like an electric love affair.
things had happened.
things turned bad.
When you see all the walls come down,
your life's a struggle.your life is a dump.
emotional pangs attack the mind.
Now you think you're stupid all the time.
I got the strength and I'll be fine .
Though it's gonna be a really rough ride.

My body is a cage that stops me from the missions I've got to do.
My body is a cage that stops me from loving you.
what you see is not what you get yet things are as it is.
Cause baby ,it was all a guessing game and now you know the real deal.

Now i see the mirror. That reflects my inner soul.
callow , stupid & slow.
but whats reflected is a person who plays roles.
My head flipping through the scripts of my life.
My only memories were lewd,lousy & mean.

My body is a cage
I'm trapped in this place.
A fixed routine
I'm slowly falling from grace.

2008-05-08T08:12:00.000-07:00

Drowsy days
late nights
your voice
a lullaby

the silence
awakens me
the tears
refreshes me

fears relived again
hurt derived from
disappointment and pain
my acts all in vain

I didn't cry alone
The skies feel my pain
I hope this wont last long
I don't want this to be those lasting stains

2008-05-05T06:05:00.000-07:00

have you ever noticed your life on screen
the actors just going through the scripts
when you know they know nothing at all
even though they tried

they would never understand
the pain the hardship and that we felt
the would never comprehend
the emotional scars left

they don't see life through my eyes
they don't walk in my painful shoes
they don't know how i think the way i do
they don't seem to know how i pull through

Like any other victim of pursuit
I hide.
Under their watchful eyes
I disguise

Living a life which is not mine
Expressing a style differently defined

2008-03-23T11:21:00.000-07:00

Gambarmu telahku bakar,
menjadi sembati dengan angin membayu.
Nombormu telahku hilangkan.
Namun,memori kita bersama tidak akanku lepaskan.

Ku tak pernh mencari.
Kau yang datang padaku.
Terdirilah harapan tinggi.
Hanya untuk dihancurmu.

Setiap kaliku teringat pelukmu,
Ku terasa hembusan angin dingin.
Ku sedar semula.
Ku hidup dlm sepi.

Sedihku katakan namun terpaksaku lafazkan.
Wajibku lupakan saat indah.
Kerna telah hilang perasaan cinta.
Mengapakah kau pergi...

2007-12-19T02:56:00.002-08:00

baby i dont understand
whats been goin on
youve been acting differently the way you do your thing
you saw me holding someone elses hand
all you do is walk away w/o making a stand
now you push me a way in front of your friends
put me aside as if i'm only pretend
there is something you gotta tell me
whatcha gonna say now baby

do you still love me like you use to do
did you ever loved me cause you wanted to
--- so baby tel me this-----
do you stilll love me like you used to do
do you love me like how much i loved you

are we on the same page anymore
now i see you walking out that door

2007-12-19T02:56:00.001-08:00

you walked away
and waved goodbye
as you took the flight
that was gonna end our perfect lives
......
i just wanna be close to you
wanna be by your side
baby take my hand
lets ride

i wanna be able
to feel your heart beat
i want to know you're
always alright
......
i wanna love you
like you've always loved me

2007-12-19T02:55:00.001-08:00

everytime your down
always know that i'm around
no matter wht you do
always know i'm there for you
so always remember
that i'll be by your side
for now and 4ever
standing with you through life----

2007-12-19T02:54:00.000-08:00

using music to mask my feelings
making the sounds engulf my head
overcoming every emotion
losing myself to the motion

let it hypnotize me
envelope me
take me over
control me forever

forget all feelings
get it out of your head
letting go all constrictions
better alive than dead

make sure its all gone
flowing slowly into the ground
following rivers and seas
washed away like washed away sins

2007-12-19T02:52:00.000-08:00

do you remember me
do you remember me like i remember you
am i on your mind everytime
the sun moon align

all those wasted words,
they dont mean a thing
all those precious time lost
because of a different ending

do you feel me
do you feel me like i feel you
i reach out my hand,but you are never there
called your number but i cant get through

i can sense your feelings
see you changing
cause i'm never far behing
i know we're drifting

you claimed that you love me
can i believe you
you promised my happiness
will it ever come true

you used me to
fill your time alone
you used sweet words
to lure me to your home

i've had it with your lies
your fun and games of love
seriously i dont understand
what your aims were

2007-12-11T00:40:00.000-08:00

i've learnt and told myself
that looks are not everything
i've learnt and taught myself
beauty is from within

so it doesn matter what's the colour of your skin
or the size that you wearing
cause that dont define who you are
you can be who you chose to be

Dont let words hurt you
cause words are just letters put together
Dont let their talk scar you
cause the talk is from voices that will be forgotten

but you know that you'll succeed
in almost everything
if you believe....
in no one else but yourself

2007-12-11T00:09:00.000-08:00

Underneath this smile
i hide the tears i cried
underneath this smile
i always remember the times you lied

Behind the laughter i guffawed
i awaited for the truth
behind the laughter i guffawed
i assure myself what you did
you didnt mean to

Beneath the kisses
laid a hurt man
going through the
motions of life
called love

You dont do the words,
you spoke justice.
you dont love me like before.
Now i'm like any other guy to you
Since thats how easy you say
I love you

do you truly love me?

2007-11-13T07:22:00.000-08:00

what did you do to me
how did you spite me
why did you use me
what wrong did i do

it's difficult to step forward
so much easier said than done
constantly looking backwards
not accepting that its the end

i can't even think straight to finish this gawsh

2007-11-09T00:22:00.000-08:00

why should i live ?
when i dont have your love.
why should i be on earth ?
if you always fly the skies.
why should i even be here?
if you've been blown with the wind,
with some other guy.

how has my feelings,
come to this?
was it your charm?
or,
was it me in sheer loneliness?

if so then,
why am i lonely?
why do i feel emptiness of the heart?
do i have family?
i do.
do i have friends?
i do too.
do i have,....
now i understand how the sad single feels.
----------------
Now playing: Imran Ajmain - Seribu Tahun
via FoxyTunes

2007-11-07T06:17:00.000-08:00

its bad enough
i walk these roads alone
and the rainclouds follow
my path like a shadow

now i come to know
that my little fairytale
like broken glass
shattered from its case

i'm stupid
i'm ugly
i get nothing done right
there is no purpose in life

at 16 i'm a failure

2007-11-04T09:29:00.001-08:00

let it pass by
let it touch the window pane
let the tears of the sky
cleanse my sins away

let it be the friend
i never had
let it fill the
silence within

how much i wish
my life was
more than
the road most take

how much i wish
i would
sail the seas
fly the skies

i wish ....

2007-11-03T04:40:00.000-07:00

my feelings for you have evolved
you are such a great person
great friend and
more

i do not know
how I came to this
but some how
you've been badly miss

is it because it was you
who was there whenever
i was isolated by
every other

was because of the songs you sang
with a voice of a choir you made me smile
with the lyrics you chose
the words of a poet

the last time i saw you
i heard disgust in your voice
i saw the absence in you presence
i felt the enmity right from you

so just tell me this
and we would be over
what did i do
to deserve losing you

2007-11-01T04:55:00.000-07:00

I'm sipping coffee
do you know what you did to me ?
I'm all over you.
can't stop thinking bout you.

I'm drinking tea.
waiting for you to reply.
but somehow I know.
that message won't come by.

I'm on Evian.
missing you makes me crazy.
don't do this to me
don't make me cry baby

the last leg of the race
and I'm breaking down
what kinda future will I have
and will you still be around

2007-10-24T09:30:00.000-07:00

every moment
i look around
thougths are struck
memories are found

every time
i take a seat
take out my prayer beads
i'm reminded of the winters cold
the summer's heat

everyday
i spent in vain
looking back into the past
it is the past that makes me
who and what i am

so now i try to move along
and face my struggles strong
i will forget my ugly past
and strive for happiness that will forever last

Jezebel

2007-10-05T06:46:00.000-07:00

A story bout a girl named Jezebel
her life didn't go so well
living life in a brothel
like a genie in a bottle

as a girl
she laid at night
she saw things men did
that was not right

the things they did in bed
the secrets they bring to their deaths
the fear of every wife
the killer of every life

once she grew,she was one of them
she tried her best to over shine the rest
it was not something she wanted to do
she had a degree she wanted to pursue

but now she's stuck in the hospital
dying from not using magnum
its a pity for Jezebel
she was going through so much hell.

2007-09-05T18:11:00.000-07:00

everytime we on the phone
we talk of everyone else but ourselves
everytime we on msn
you only talk about your friends

you don't know how i feel
i tear as i hear
the words you say
which holds nothing about us

you say praises to
make me feel great
you say i love you
even though you're str8

the world doesn't
want us to be together
the girls crawling
just to get ya number

i'm trying to be strong
bout our dilemma
i've gotta be strong
so we could last longer

i'm sorry
i feel wrong
i feel guilty
i'm bad

2007-08-15T09:13:00.000-07:00

Ever felt like the sky was weighing down on you
The seven sea were against you
The sun was too hot for you
Blowing winds grew too cold for you

You don't know if you gonna die freezing.
Or decay under the sun.
You may be swallowed by the seas.
Or even be crushed by the skies.

This is no elegy,
No tears flow from this eyes.
You know that emo feeling
Sometimes you have inside

I'm just afraid other people
Will feel the pain
My wrath my scorn my flame

I cant help it
So stay away
Put me on Bermuda island
Or take a long road trip away.

2007-06-04T04:33:00.000-07:00

some moments you will not know what to do
there's so many people out there
and you've found some one new
you like her and all
and you and her just click
but you just remembered
that you're in a relationship
one you're quite ok with
its just that your partner isn't that girl
its obvious you've been trippin' over her

are you gonna lose this girl?
or break another's heart?
but when you break off in the end,
you're reminded from the start
how you felt so lonely
how you were in despair
you know what lets just stop

2007-06-01T08:21:00.000-07:00

bombarded posters of sahib abdullaev
front covers with kiera
some other hottie on men's health
and another on harper's bazaar

as day by day goes by
i'm reminded that i'm not beautiful
i cry these tears at night
i've always thought i wasn't so superficial

but it hit me when i knew
it hurt to know i'm not beautiful
maybe i'm more plastic than i thought
so plastic i didnt know the truth

look at what they did to lindsay
see what happened to nicole richie
how about Ana Reston who died
just think about anna smith

theres no more shit bout inner beauty
its either you have it or you don't

2007-05-30T08:28:00.001-07:00

i looked at you
for guidance
but you were
a devil instead

you got it wrong
and gave me a hand
what i meant was no
you didn't understand

the tragedy began for me
i suffer in silence
crying tears no one could see
i didn't want violence

so i didn't rebel
and i let'em do
what he wanted to
i was touched...

2007-05-30T07:54:00.000-07:00

I'm missing you.
i miss your touch,
your kiss,your warmth.
i just want you,
to be with me,by my side.
i miss your voice,
the way you talk.
your masculine baritone,
lingers in my mind.

I'm sorry,
I'm sorry,
I'm sorry,
I'm sorry,
i truly am.

I'm sorry because I'm not who you expected
I'm sorry because i hold you down
I'm sorry because i disappoint you
I'm sorry because i am who i am

if there was anything i could do please tell me
i would cater to you
if there was anything i could change,please say so
i would change for you

how do i show that I'm proud of your work?
how do i show that I'm proud of our love?
how do i show that I'm proud of you?

you turn my world around with a single smile
you make my walls come down,with your voice of a choir.
you make me feel strong,your sacrifices give me strength
you words so pure like those of a poet

DO I DESERVE TO BE WITH YOU?

2007-05-30T07:47:00.000-07:00

for that night
in the park
under the stars
i looked into your eyes
so beautiful

for that hour
on the grass
you showed me stars
orion,ara and volans
so wonderful

for that minute
we shared topics
life,love,had eclairs
looking out to the world
so sweet

for that moment
you pecked my cheeks
you intoxicated me with your kisses
you teased me and made me yours
for that moment ...

2007-05-30T07:28:00.000-07:00

i took a chance
at this romance
i thought that it would work
if i did my very best.

i guess i was wrong
now that you're gone
i guess i was blind to see
this scenario happening to me

gonna make you regret
for what you did to me
gonna make you feel bad
that you missed out on me

cause you don't know whatcha losing
you just thinking short term
you don't know whatcha missing
well gerl you got served

2007-05-30T07:26:00.000-07:00

i can't do this anymore
like what i did before
i could easily move on
without you with me.
my life is all better
now that you left me.
i could tell that somethings wrong
as our love is not as strong
you think i was too naive and blind to see what was in front of me
you think i couldn't feel the distance between you and me
i could tell that you were swinging
whats worst was that i knew him
i won't be sad,i wont regret
i'll just walk out of this relationship
with things i will never forget
i will learn and grow to be a better man
stronger than ...

2007-05-30T07:22:00.000-07:00

i'm sorry if it seems like i'm neglecting you,
i just have other stuff to do .
i care for both of you equally,
so please,don't get jealous so easily.

i will call you because i need you,
and you know you mean more than a friend.
there will be times i wont be right beside you,
but that doesn't mean the end.

i message you every morning
to make sure you're ok
but you never reply
and i have to send again

i can sense the hostility
everytime i'm out with him
messaging me" fine spent time with him "
how do you think that makes me feel

2007-05-30T07:20:00.000-07:00

hey guys these are a compilation of my poems ...
its not that nice
but even if it isn't please don't steal ... ask my permission first :)